Be as miserable as the cavities that lurk behind your pristine white washed teeth and the ancestral secrets that they keep
It’s not enough to just brush but the blood that tarnishes your sink when you floss is too harsh under the fluorescent bulbs in your rent-stabilized home that before you has never known such whiteness
You wave to the right strangers on the street the ones that seem innocent enough
The brown babies who often blush when you wiggle your fingers in their direction
You eat and you eat ignoring the small pain that is ever present
Silence the misery beholden to you and to me
You’ve woken up again and again in the middle of the night to the loud neighborhood kids either in the middle of a celebration or a fight
So unlike the sidewalks in your suburban hometown that as your dad would say got rolled up at night
Strange to be a stranger when your bank account says this is exactly where you belong
Flick your tongue out of habit to the back of your mouth
Fall back asleep and awake to the streets
that never went to sleep
the lingering taste of iron in your mouth
You shower and wash it out
Let the misery overflow and overfill the cup you’ve been told must only hold the happiness and innocence of childhood summers when school felt years away and the sun didn’t set until you were already tucked into bed
Be as miserable as the sky is on days when there is no universe
Just hell on Earth